Distracted.

Right now I am sitting in my living room trying, well not trying to hard, to read an article for history that is due tomorrow morning, but I look outside and all I want to do right now is go for a long walk. When it is cool and gray out, I simply want to go on a walk and feel the cool crispness on my cheeks. One does all their best thinking while on a walk, I think. I would do my homework outside, but I know I would just be too darn distracted and nothing would ever get done. However, sitting in my living room looking out the window while sipping on some pumpkin spice coffee will suffice for now. I long for the day when I will not have assignments on my mind and I can just go out for a long walk. Also, I am looking at pinterest and I would love to start a few sewing projects. First thing, get my own sewing machine that I can take to school! Then I would never get anything done. :) Oh well…

Soon.

So, I decided what I want to do with my life. That’s right, this girl finally figured it out. I am going to have an antique shop/book store/ coffee shop. Yep, all three in one, it’s going to be great! Oh also, I am going to sing in a jazz band. Yep, life is now figured out. :)

Blessed.

Alright, this might be sort of a long one since it has been so long and I have had so much to write about, but I have been simply too busy to do anything I have really wanted to do. I titled this post blessed because I have been realizing how blessed I really am. It has been quite a difficult time since I last posted just with school, work, and my confidence in myself, but despite all that, I am surrounded by people that love me and constantly show me that. Today, as I was working on a writing assignment, I became super overwhelmed with everything I had to accomplish before my morning classes tomorrow. I was feeling anxious like I just needed to get outside and take a walk by myself, but I didn't see how that was possible with everything I needed to do. Out of exasperation, I walked into my roommate's room to talk about how ridiculous it was that my 2000 word response was only worth 10 points and it was stressing me out like crazy that I was sure it had to be worth more. Anyways, I vented to her and before I knew it, I was crying uncontrollably and just venting about everything that had been stressing me out and had been bottled up for a few weeks. My roommate, Emily, is great. She just sat there, when she had homework too, and listened and prayed for me. That helped so much just to know that I had someone there who genuinely cared about me and what I was going through. Yesterday a similar incident, well not so similar, happened. I received a letter in the mail from Brookie that was the best encouraging note I could have ever received. It was exactly what I needed to make it through the rest of my day. Talking to my sister, Virginia, this last weekend also helped just to hear a familiar voice and someone that I really look up to as well. Some verses that have been helping me to get through my struggles are Habukkuk 3:17-18. I have listed that verse earlier on here, but it is one that I am constantly going to and constantly reminding myself of it. It is really a great couple of verses. Another one my roommate shared with me today was Psalm 62:5-9 which is also amazing. And yet another right at the top of my blog, Psalm 30:5b. How blessed we are to be surrounded by people and to be so loved by God that we don't need to find our confidence and love from anyone or anything but Him.

So, on another note. I got to go home two weekends ago and it was so relaxing and wonderful to be there. I hardly left my house, but that was really all I needed to get rejuvenated. That is a picture of the home I love so much up at the top. The whole weekend all I did was cleaned (which I love), baked, watched Gilmore Girls late into the night with my mama, went on a picnic with mother dear and my aunt Jeanie, church at the little church in Alsen complete with a potluck, and that pretty much sums it up. Last weekend then, I was at school and I worked the entire weekend, which was sort of nice. I got extra hours and completed a ton of homework for the next two weeks! So that made me feel accomplished. I love when I can have a list of things I need to do and can just quickly go through them checking one thing off after another. I think that is why I love cleaning so much, you can see the results right away and that just makes you want to accomplish more.

I seriously planned on writing more, but I really need to get to bed. One last note, I have slept so much in the last day it is ridiculous. I went to bed last night at like 10:30 to read and fell asleep by 11 when I don't need to be up until 8:00ish. Then all day I was practically falling asleep in every class...so I came back after lunch at 2:30 and slept until 4:15! To which then I woke up and was stressing about my history homework because I hadn't planned on sleeping that long and had completely slept through my alarm. I guess I needed it! Anyways, I really need to get to bed. I hope that you all have a blessed day and that you see God's goodness through every little thing, the storms and the joys. Good night.

Rambling Man.

I promise I will hold off on the songs for awhile, but you need to hear this song first….

Oh, naïve little me

asking what things you have seen

you’re vulnerable in your head

you’ll scream and you’ll wail till you’re dead.

Creatures veiled by night

following things that aren’t right

and they’re tired and they need to be led

or you’ll scream and you’ll wail till you’re dead.

But give me to a rambling man

let it always be known that I was who I am.

Beaten, battered and cold

my children will live just to grow old

but if I sit here and weep

i’ll be blown over by the slightest of breeze.

And the weak need to be led

and the tender I’ll carry to their bed

and it’s a pale and cold affair

i’ll be damned if I’ll be found there.

But give me to a rambling man

let it always be known that I was who I am.

It’s funny how the first chords you come to

are the minor notes that come to serenade you

it’s hard to accept yourself as someone

you don’t desire as someone you don’t want to be.

Oh, give me to a rambling man

Let it always be known that I was who I am.

Beautiful.

Why do we close our eyes when we pray?

When we cry?

When we dream? Or when we kiss?

Because we know that the most beautiful

things in life are not seen,

but felt by the heart.

I just love this picture and these last two sayings I posted. Recently, I found all three and they have been posted on my bulletin board above my desk. This picture is one of my new favorites because it is so different. I love history and looking at old pictures, but this one is different from the rest. Rather than looking stoic and miserable, you can see the love between the mother and her daughter. I don't know...I just love it.

COZY.

Some things that make me happiest are when I can hangout with my friends on a Friday night just watching movies and sitting in big baggy sweaters. What joy. :) Also, earlier today I went on a walk with one of my friends and had the swellest little chat. Fall is just a cozy time of year. When there is a chill in the air and the trees are changing, it is the perfect time to get cozy.

I have realized that I love political science. Weird, I know, but it's true. I am in a government class and it is one class I look forward to most. My professor is grand, which may have a large impact on that. She has us coming each day to class with news stories that we discuss together. Because of that, I started picking up the paper at school. Who knew that reading the paper was so much fun? Ha. Anyways, that is something I discovered I loved.

One more thing I love: Bon Iver. I recently just bought his new album and so all I have been listening to recently is Bon Iver, all three albums I have of his. He's grand, simply grand. How can one man have so much talent? It's beyond me...

One more bit of randomness...I am making a photo collage for my room using all black and white photos. It's going to look so sweet. One of the pictures I am going to put up is above.

Good night and sweet dreams.

FALL.

When school starts, I feel like it should be fall. You know, cool, crisp, changing leaves, a tad bit of bundling up. :) Mhmm...that always makes me happy. I keep seeing pictures of fall and winter scenes and other little things that makes me think of the changing season. Fall is by far my favorite season; I just love when you can bundle up with a sweater and some hot chocolate. Thinking about it right now gets me so excited when that time comes. Here are a few of the pictures that I saw that got me into this crazy mood where I just wish it would get colder already.

What's your favorite season?